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I owe Robert Pattinson an apology.

There. I said it.

I came to Twilight late. Very late. So late that my introduction to Edward Cullen came via a Criminal Minds joke I didn’t understand. And after I did my crash course of the series, Robert Pattinson existed in my head primarily as Edward Cullen. And I laughed at Edward Cullen. A lot. 

In my defence, Robert made it very easy.

Take that famous biology-class scene in Twilight. Bella walks into the room and the scent of her blood hits Edward. He is a vampire. Her blood is supposed to call to him at some primal level. He wants it, is horrified by how much he wants it, and is desperately trying not to lose control in a classroom full of humans.

At least, that’s what I understand was happening.

What I saw was a guy who looked like he’d accidentally shit in his pants and couldn’t figure out how to sit without anyone finding out. The clenched jaw. The flared nostrils. The pained expression. The slight recoil.

Was he fighting bloodlust? Was he in pain? Was he irritated? Constipated?

Your guess was as good as mine.

To be completely fair to Pattinson, some of my mockery belonged to Edward Cullen himself. The character and I were never destined to become friends. But Pattinson’s expressions certainly didn’t help matters.

So I laughed at him. Then I avoided him.

And somewhere along the way, while I wasn’t looking, Robert Pattinson apparently went and became one hell of an actor.

I first had to grudgingly reconsider my opinion when I watched Tenet. 

Now, I cannot tell you what Tenet was about. I did watch it. But time started going forward and backward and people started doing things they had already done but hadn’t done yet…or something along those lines…and my brain quietly raised its internal shield in self-defence.

What I did notice was Pattinson. 

His Neil was relaxed, charming, almost playful. There was an ease about him that was completely different from the tortured stiffness I associated with Edward Cullen. And beneath that ease was something else. A man who knew more than he was saying.

I may not have understood the movie.

But I understood that Robert Pattinson was no longer the actor I thought he was.

Then came The Batman. And Bruce Wayne.

Not the polished billionaire playboy version of Bruce Wayne. And not the controlled, purposeful Bruce Wayne either. Pattinson’s Bruce isn’t the charismatic billionaire Bruce with Batman tucked underneath. He’s almost the reverse. Batman is the functioning identity. Bruce Wayne is the damaged disguise. Pattinson barely moves his face sometimes, but you can see the withdrawal in his body. Shoulders folding inward, gaze dropping, the strange discomfort of somebody who doesn’t quite know what to do when he isn’t behind the mask.

And suddenly that stillness I had once found so strange in Edward Cullen was doing something completely different. I wasn’t trying to decipher his expression anymore.

I could see the man.

Still, somewhere in my head, a tiny voice probably continued muttering: Edward Cullen.

Then Christopher Nolan gave me Antinous in The Odyssey.

Fine. I surrender.

Because there was absolutely nothing of Edward Cullen in Antinous. Nothing of Neil either. Nothing of Bruce Wayne.

Antinous fascinated me almost immediately. There was something slippery about him. He could be creepy in one moment, greedy in another, while keeping that veneer of charm firmly in place. The entitlement was always there, but rarely did he need to announce it. It surfaced in the way he spoke, the way he watched, the way he occupied a home that wasn’t his as though he had already begun imagining it as his own.

And through all of it, Pattinson never seemed to be playing the villain. He was simply playing Antinous…charming on the surface, unsettling underneath, and entitled enough to believe that what he wanted could eventually become his.

I didn’t dislike him. I found him fascinating. Which, frankly, was far more dangerous. Which meant Pattinson had me exactly where he wanted me.

And perhaps the funniest part of my Pattinson conversion came afterwards.

Pattinson has spoken about Nolan approaching him for The Odyssey. Apparently, Pattinson responded that he couldn’t wait to read the script.

Nolan was surprised. You want to read it? Everyone else just said yes.

And then I came across a comment on Instagram: After Twilight, Robert isn’t taking any chances. 🤣

Fair enough, Robert. Neither would I.

But jokes aside, there is something genuinely impressive about looking at Edward Cullen, Neil, Bruce Wayne and Antinous and struggling to find the actor connecting them.

Not because Pattinson disappears under prosthetics or elaborate physical transformations. He changes the person inhabiting the body.

The posture changes. The voice changes. The rhythm changes. The energy changes. Even the way he seems to take up space changes.

So yes.

I owe Robert Pattinson an apology.

I still reserve the right to laugh at Edward Cullen. Some things cannot be undone.

That biology-class expression will forever look less like a vampire fighting an overwhelming thirst for blood and more like a man desperately hoping nobody notices the unfortunate situation inside his trousers.

But I withdraw every conclusion I drew from it about the actor playing him.

And now, rather unexpectedly, Robert Pattinson has become one of those actors whose next performances I actively want to see.

Scytale in Dune: Part Three.

Chris Hansen in Primetime.

Two more completely different men. And for the first time, when Robert Pattinson appears on screen, I won’t be looking for Edward Cullen.

I’ll be looking forward to finding out who walked in instead.